Love

It's hard to love.
It's not easy always being there.
I feel like my love is really shallow most the time.
But there are other times when i know my love runs deep.
I love.
I love thee.
Sometimes, certain lyrics to songs really make me think, because we can sing them and worship, no problem, but really, think about what you're saying. "i would run for a thousand years if i knew every step would be getting me closer. I'd swim to the ocean floor, for my Lord is the treasure."
Those words are really so hard to commit to i think. Like, i say, " yeah, i'd do that for God, i love him" but why can't i wake up every morning to read my bible? Or why did i choose to go bowling instead of praying like i should have? Am i being smart with my money? just things you know. Josh Whitney said the same thing once, that sometimes he doesn't sing a song because those words say something that he's not sure that he fulfills. I was thinking about that. Gosh i'm tired.
Why didn't Kelsea's last blog show up?