she'll be coming around the mountain

I like it when my Grandma comes into town, because she says that I've lost weight, that my teeth are white, and she notices that my hair is growing. And she lives 1500 miles away. I can't even believe she's so good at keeping track of everything. It boggles my mind.

Maybe

Maybe i could be a pilot who flies lots of jumbo planes and doesn't ever ever ever crash because i'm really good.
Or, maybe i could be a physician...
Maybe i could be one who takes care of rabits or other tiny furry animals.
Maybe you would want to take care of the rabits with me?
Or, maybe we could train wild bears and be friends with them.
Maybe we could join the circus and learn how to ride those unicycles?
maybe someday you and I will be more than just kids.
Maybe we could change the world!!!

philanthropist

"Don't just pretend that you love others. Really love them. Hate was is wrong. Stand on the side of the good. Love each other with genuine affection, and take delight in honoring each other. Never be lazy in your work, but serve the Lord enthusiastically."
-Romans 12:9-11

I sort of gaped when I saw this. All in three verses Paul just lays it out so bluntly and perfectly. This was alot to take in even after coffee and a Hitler movie at 8:03 this morning. I like it a lot. I think I'll post it somewhere, because, so often, I just put on this facade of loving people. You know? I want true affection for these kids that I don't really like. To see their souls on the line.

Happy Spring Break! SPRING. How exhaustingly nice.

How real is our faith in our prayers?

So, i was over at Hayden's house tonight and after all the people left Heather, Scott and I were talking about the Lds faith and how much bologna it is and so when i left i just started praying, and my thought was Jesus said that if we prayed something and truly believed it we could move the mountains, so it would happen. I struggle with believing that when i pray that at that moment if i truly believe it it's happened. I pray that he can take away my unbelief because I was just praying for Gordon B. and for God to take the scales away from his eyes that he may see the truth and reveal it to everyone. It got me thinking that I just never put enough faith in Gods word. It saddens me a little bit. WE COULD DO ANYTHING through prayer. But God's will will ultimately be done I suppose.

So, i know i never told you guys, but I'm no longer in a band. I had lunch with Steele on Wednesday and he told me that he doesn't think I was good enough to be a lead singer. It was fine, I was totally fine with it. I knew i was only temporary. It will be nice not having to worry about that now. I told him that i felt like this was going to happen soon anyway, and it was a huge relief for him because he was really dreading the conversation, i could see why.
But things are super. Paul's going to do great!

That's about it for me this evening.

Love

It's hard to love.
It's not easy always being there.
I feel like my love is really shallow most the time.
But there are other times when i know my love runs deep.
I love.
I love thee.
Sometimes, certain lyrics to songs really make me think, because we can sing them and worship, no problem, but really, think about what you're saying. "i would run for a thousand years if i knew every step would be getting me closer. I'd swim to the ocean floor, for my Lord is the treasure."
Those words are really so hard to commit to i think. Like, i say, " yeah, i'd do that for God, i love him" but why can't i wake up every morning to read my bible? Or why did i choose to go bowling instead of praying like i should have? Am i being smart with my money? just things you know. Josh Whitney said the same thing once, that sometimes he doesn't sing a song because those words say something that he's not sure that he fulfills. I was thinking about that. Gosh i'm tired.
Why didn't Kelsea's last blog show up?

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

IT'S KELSEA'S BIRTHDAY TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!!!!
WE'RE ALL SO EXCITED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ESPECIALLY ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

12:48

Take a stroll down the ally of my mind.
You'll see that it's dark, and that it has rained recently.
It's narrow but wide enough to lie down.
On the sides of the buildings there are a series of doors.
The building on the left seems to be a bit more attractive, and the doors look solid.
The building on the right is decadent and obsolete. Looks like you could just push through the door.
At the end of the ally there seems to be a group of stragglers off the street standing around a fire and having no direction for tomorrow.
See the doors on the left, the strong doors, are labeled with important things in your life: God, Family, friends. But the door to your right is labeled with: Money, Image, drugs, sex and other such things.
The people at the end of the ally simbolize those who never make decisions, but just simply live. Thinking that they are good people and that good things should come their way.
It sounds really easy, " go in the door on the left" but it seems as though you almost fall into the doors on the right if you're not careful. Like someone gets that foothold on you and pulls you right in.
At the same time you could simply stroll further down and avoid the option's entirely.
You notice more and more people adding to each group, except the doors to your left. You find that odd. " is it because they're more fun? Or is it just the easier way out?" these questions enter your head.
On the inside you're telling yourself to go into the doors to your left, but it just sounds so boring and plain and not everything that everyone else seems to be doing.
So, there you stand.